I have no idea where I am. No idea where I'm headed, if anywhere. I've been trying to preserve most of what art I have left, but now all I want to do is discard it all, abandon my old work, my old ways of thinking. Start new.

I feel that I spent too long doing commercial art, pictures, and just slacking off so much that I lost my original resolve. And now I can't find my purpose. What it is that incarnates me. And trying to start off again where I left off with my actual art work doesn't feel right. I'm not that person anymore so why should I try to continue on with "old me's" work? But then what work will "new me" do? I'm lost, with no way to find out where I am now. Who I am now? And what happen to me?

Its sucks growing up. You lose sight of your dreams and settle for what you've been steadily trained to expect.

So now I need to find myself, and in a weird way it scares me. Time for some experimenting? Just not the fun Collage kind of experimenting. XP